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For reasons I don't even know, I have started a class course in Polish. I am actually taking this madness to another level.
I am learning a third language!
(Or trying to at least)
The moment you are spending more than 300EUR on a thing, it's getting serious. (Or stupid, I can't decide)

Either way,  it's a few hours in the week,  and it's every Thursday in town.
Started last week.
The teacher is wonderful, very engaging and funny.

The language is as it has always been- freaking impossible. But not entirely.
I really really want to get this right. At least something.
Languages have never been my strength,  but hey : I wanna beat my own disbeliefs again - So if I am going down, I will at least know that I tried! :)


Did Crossword in polish - I am superior!!
EDIT: I wrote wrong. Its suppose to be CUKREM, not CUKIER.
Just need to add that, because. . . just because!

At least I laugh a lot everytime I am trying to say something in polish. Ha ha.
It starts with laugher... after the 14th attempt to say imię you get a biiiiiit upset, but I try to hide that. . . Until I can't.

For now,  looking forward to class nr 2, on Thursday.

Do zobaczenia!

 

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Les den gratis HER 
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Begynte på den i 2011, og den har blitt skrevet om flere ganger siden. 
Har snakket mye om den her før, samt delt masse tegninger fra det universet.

Det er i sjangeren : Fantasy
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Håper du finner glede i den.
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Thanks!

Two years in the Witcher school community - LARP -

Boredom. 
Happens all the time, and some of us ends up doing all kind of weird stuff when this phenomenon happens.

I for my case looked up ALL my posted post in the Witcher School community since June 2016.  Damn I am spamming the page a lot! (Sorry, guys)
If it ever needed to be confirmed: That community is awesome on every level. Just reading through the comments on the post warms my heart, and lovely memories comes back from when I was totally new there and up til now. 
So much have changed. I got many new and good friends. people from all over Europe came visit, and more people plan to visit in the future. :) 
I've learned a lot. I've joined the best LARP in a lifetime. And it's not over, yet. It's never over.
Polish larps are the best larps, and I will never stop attending them now. . .  :3 

I took out a few posts to just show you 5% of greatness.
It made me smile and I am still smiling.


This is 2018. THIS year. It feels longer, though.
This bunch of lovely creatures found their way to Bergen, just for my ''Witcher School meetup'', and they stayed the whole weekend with me. And it was the best thing. We did all kinds of things from: Restaurants, hiking, museums, city sightseeing, drinking, chatting, watching bad movies, did push-ups and what not.
In this picture we all gathered up at the Finns TINY hotel-room before we left for food. It was fantastic, crowed together and talked about . . . you know, witcher stuff, and how much we missed one another. Look at those smiles!





This one got a bit tiny, but it says : 
'' Well, you know you are ready when you dream of the school and oversleeps with 1.5hours!!  
I was a queen and demanded to fight with the witchers...lol! I have no idea where that idea came from, but I had fun.'' 

I still don't know where it came from, and I don't remember it now.
This was July 15. 2016 - So I had not even started my first event, yet! I had no idea what I could expect. There was fights with witchers, but no queens :3 
Apart from DramaQueens :p





1: We have our own Grandmaster Floof. Her name is Flora and she is a Corgi. Kera is a fan, so she wanted to be her apprentice. She is under training now :)
2:  I wanted to help a friend, and together with YOU - we made it. I am still so amazed. You are the best. People inside the community and outside!
3: Forever Claw. It had to happen. I got a witcherschool related tattoo. My group in the game is called the Claws. And the other symbol in the tattoo is a sign from the original games.
This is more than just that. The claws are very attached group, and we all take care of each other. Many of the Claws are my irl friends, and we are now 3 with a claw tatto ^_^ 
4: First time in Wroclaw HYPE post. I just got to my hotel, and everyone knew how stressed in advance I was (for no reason) everything went smoothly, and I am still thankful for all the help I got with my '' .oh.my.god.I.a.lost''- posts.
My amazing journey as a witcher started there. MEMORIES!






I started a presentation post, shortly after I was accepted in the group. And so my first contacts happened. Great thing that group. Get to ''know'' people and their faces before you meet them.
28th June 2016!

And push-ups are famous at the Witcher School. And there is a few push-up posts in the group, and they don't stop coming, and people don't stop liking them! 
HAH! 





Sometimes people are just wonderful.
Here I got a ''in game letter'' from another Claw.
This is a letter from a character (not the person) to MY character. And whatever it says - I can bring the letter to my next game, and play on it's contents. And I will! 
I got a few letters, and I love them all. It is SO much fun!





More from  the meetup in Bergen - Here in our house, partying! Yaay. Hillarious vidoes, you can't see. HAH! 
But it's full of in game humor, like : Push ups, for Temeria. 
And a toast to one of the NOTSOTWISTEDWITCHERSMASTER who is such a great larper! Love his acting.





EVEN poetry happens here. I have written a few, and shared some. It's great fun when I'm inspired to write something to another witcher, or something in-game related.

And I drew myself for the first time. . .  But to make it less horrifying, I added her Master in it. Took some time, but it was fun to work with.




I saw pictures, before I started the game. And one of my endless questions were just this : ''Am I allowed to use the pictures for personal use, or do we pay for them, or how does it work? ''

Just have to ask to be sure, you know. . . It's important with things like this, ALWAYS credit the photographers who dedicate a whole weekend for us! And BOY the pictures are fantastic, never stops to amaze me. Great great greeeeat photographers!




LIKES. Beautiful people liking my drawing(s) (of them)


MORE WitcherMeetUp partying. Group-drink-pushup-challenge! Ha ha, this was great, and the best part is : EVERYONE DID IT.
I just love when I have a stupid idea, and everyone is like : YES! (and jumps up and are ready to do it)
This video is brilliant, and again - NO, hahahaha, you can't see it.
Not here, at least.

Packing time for my second or third event, I think. Ears are important!

 

 

So that was it (can't share all of it)
Buut, as always. I miss Poland again. Poland and it's people. Poland and it's LARPS. Poland and Witcherschool. Poland and THE pizza! 

Working out alone is boring.

Gym-talk.

It's no unfamiliar to many that I have been a sort of a workout-freak since . . . ehm. I wan't to say from when I was 10, but that is not correct, but it's still important to add.
It started there. All things start somewhere.
At the age of 10 I started swimming. Eventually evolved to competition-swimming. But I did not really wanted to become something, or build something, before I passed 14-15, I think.
I quit swimming when I was 18, and joined a gym for weight-lifting instead. Did that a few years before I tried Taekwondo for another 2 years. This is the thing I regret most that I quit. 
Actually both swimming and taekwondo : Here was the only place someone (Trainer) actually pushed me to do better.


This is what this post is about. I miss a workout-buddy.

I quit taekwondo in 2010, just to go back to weight lifting again. And been there ever since. 
And as many of you have picked up - It's all feeletics    now, think I started two or three years ago with that.  
It's more or less the opposite from Crossfit. We don't lift heavy, but concentrate on cardio and body-weight. And yes. It build muscles too. If not big, it's visible. Or that is the goal at least.

On and off. I mostly do my regular workouts alone. I can't relay on anyone, and that is good. If you want to build something, get fit, loose weigh or whatever goals you must have - DON'T relay 100% on someone! 
If you aren't motivated enough by yourself, no one else can help you. Not in the long run. If you want something, you got to work for it. Because at the end if the day, something might happen and your workout-buddy cancel their appointment with you, they move out of town, get sick (whatever) and if you are not motivated on your own - you will quit too, because you just go because your friend goes. 

So I go. I guess I am sort of motivated to keep going, but man. . . it is so lonely!



But. But. but. 
It is just that. It is much easier, much more fun to have that other person to work out with. That other person to push you, that other person to grow with, to motivate each other, to see each other grow, and grow together. Achieve goals together. This is my perfect image of that workout partner who don't exist. 
Therefore - always relay on yourself. I am. But.

Again.
If anyone thinks that I always ENJOY working out. Nope. I don't.
There are days I hate it. Days where I rather just skip it and play WOW in stead. And I do. There are days where I lay in bed and cry because I don't know why I even bother. The results are worth it, yes, but for what? Better health? Be comfortable in my body? Being stronger? Maybe. . . It is still 1-2 hour a day I sometimes think if I am wasting my time. 

I miss someone motivating me too. Not only by a like on instagram or facebook. How I wish for one who basically standing over my dead body doing pushups or a plank, demanding me to go for another minute when my whole body screams NO! 
How I miss someone guiding me to a path to help me do a handstand.
How I miss someone supporting my legs, so I can be able to do a hangup.
How I miss someone asking ME if I wanna do workout today.
How I miss someone dragging me out of bed and force me to go jogging, which I hate.




Things like that. 

 

Workout. 
Maybe this post was a bit double moral, my mind works like that, when I am suppose to write down a thought.
Point is : Working out alone is boring, but if you can do it - you will achieve your goals, and you won't (most likely) be a quitter.
But everything get's boosted with a friend who suffer with you. :)  


So, if you read this and for some reason live within reach, and lack a workout buddy too. Please don't hesitate to ask me. :) 

 

Drawing

Another witcher person portrayed

Witcher School pictures, again!

Whoho, better late than never. 
Last bunch of Witcher school pictures from September 2017 is out.
I sorted out those with me in it - for obvious reasons. And as always. Incredibly happy with them all! 

This event was my best Witcher School event up till now. A lot of good game play and drama - for me and my character :) 
So good to look at new pictures and just imagine I am all back there again, at lovely Moszna Castle in wonderful September weather. 

These pictures are taken by the brilliant photographer :  Kamil Nowakowski

Witcher School is a LARP based on the Witcher game and books. (Google it) 

Bodil /me waiting for stuff to happen. It is silent before the storm. She is worried.


Profilepicture! I really like this one, though the face is full of freckles. Bodil at archeryclass, and is aiming or preparing to shoot.


I like this one too. I need to cut my hair again. I definitely prefer my hair this short :) 


More archery with the best group, the Claws. Many of these are real life friends now, and I deeply care for them all. 
I am nr 3 from the left.

More archery. We are aiming at a thing they toss up in the air. Nobody hit a shit, but we look cool ;) 
All that matters. Ha ha

After morning warmup, before breakfast. As always, nothing is like starting the day with some brutal news ;) 
Gaaah, I know I've just been there, but reality struck me. . . Just one more episode of Bodils timeline. . .  How can I survive this!? 

Will attend another event, with a new character. . . but. . . still. It all must come to an end, though I don't wanna. 
If you wanna attend Witcher School yourself, you should do it now, and do it fast - Soon it's no more events at all, so. Start saving up your money, and follow their page on facebook for more information :) 

https://www.facebook.com/WitcherSchool/
 

Grandfather, this one is for you.

I was suppose to write this yesterday, at the same time I posted it on Instagram, but then 'shit day' happened, and I was not able to do anything.
So, more honor to my grandfather.

Though I don't speak about him a lot, does not mean that I'm not thinking about him. Because I do. Frankly often.
He sadly died of cancer many years ago, when I was 14 or 15, but I remember him being positive and hopeful to the very end. That was him in a nutshell.
Fun fact : I did not know he had cancer for many years of his life before recently. 
I can only remember my mum told me he was sick and shortly after, he passed away.

Good thing is, I have only good memories of him. He lived 8 hours away from my town, so I did not see him that often, but we visited them every summer in my childhood. Those were always the highlights in the year. While people traveled to other countries I never heard about, we never did. We went to Grimstad, and stayed there for three weeks, together with aunts, uncles and cousins. 
I don't complain. Those weeks were fantastic from beginning to end. And when I think back on those days today, I agree. . . Best childhood memories.

Grandfather was one amazing man. I remember him as being creative, funny, playful, always had a power-nap after dinner (do.not.disturb.)  
He also build things in wood. Everything from cabins to clocks. You should seen them. The cabin still stays :) 
He loved nature, and we were often walking in the forrest / mountain with him and my grandmother.
My mother also told me that he loved my grandmother, his wife, and it showed. 
He was from the Faero Island, and sometimes we could hear him speak this language, but I never understood anything of it. I think my mother and her siblings understood some of it. I don't know why I find this a bit cool. If he lived today I would definitely ask him to teach me something.

And here is the story about the tea!

I honestly think if you ask everyone what his favorite drink/food was he would answer : Tea and pancakes.
He drank from a cup like this when I was a child. I asked him if he liked panckakes and he answered with a joke : No, I don't like pancakes. 
I would go like: Noooo, that is not true.
He : No, I don't like it, and you do certainly don't like it.
Me: NOOO, YEES, I like pancakes!
And so on. 
He drank 'normal' earl-grey with milk and sugar. I did too. 

And now I have two of these cups to remind me of him. It might seem like a small thing, but I would not asked for anything else. 
(Smile) 

My grandfather became 72 (?) I think. I don't really remember. But I do remember the last time I saw him. We celebrated him.
He was 70, and summer and I think It was his birthday. We were all gathered in their garden (Wonderful, big house they had. Think he build it too) everyone, aunts, uncles, garndchildren, partens and so on. And there was plenty of food and sodas for everyone. We kids played games, had fun, running around until bedtime. There was never a boring moment. And the 'grown-ups' were chatting, laughing, telling stories about their lives and what they had been doing since last time, and such.
SUCH a great day!  And that was my last memory of him. Which is a good one. I will always remember him as funny, strong, kind eyes, kind smile, loving father, grandfather, friend and neighbor. It was the celebration of his life, and for what my 13 year old mind could pick up at the time - he and everyone there was happy. 

I wish I could share some pictures of his happy, loving face, but I actually (sadly) don't have any. But he did not have a beard, he was always clean shaved as far as I can remember. He had strong arms, and was quite suntanned, short hair and well-dressed.
Oh, I saw a picture of him as a young man once. He looked like James Dean, not kidding!

I also learned in later in life that he was a great singer, and he sang in a choir too! (And I never-ever heard him sing) How much I would love to hear his voice, to actually learn that my love for singing might have come from him :) We could have sang something together.
When I die and hopefully come to heaven, I will find him and then we will sing together! 

His name was Hans-Michael (It's a bit embarrassing, but I don't know how he wrote his name) and there is a funny story there to, because my grandmother ALWAYS called him DAL , because the story goes that she could not say : '' Hans Michael'', or it was to long, or something, so he was always known to be DAL. :) 


So. This one is for him (and my grandmother. And my other grandfather, the best, huggable fisherman the world have ever seen), they are both very missed! But, at least - they are together again :) 
 

Lets talk about gifts

Confession time.
New to some, nothing new for others.

I.suck.at.gifts

I mean : It's not that I don't want to give gifts, or that I dont like gifts, because I do. I love to give things to people and too see their reaction when they receive it, but it's just that - I have no idea what to give.
And it just gets worse from there.

1; I absolutely hate shopping of all sorts. It doesn't depend on to who,when or why.  I just hate spending time looking for that one thing, either online or in shops. Especially in shops.

2: I can't find the perfect gift even if I try. Sometimes I can be lucky and just stumble over something and know that this thing is perfect for that person. Then its ok.

3: I don't like the concept of giving material gifts because one excpect that the other person shall give something back. 
It stresses me as a person at least.
The thought of "being a bad friend" (I know, its stupid) if you dont give something to your friends when you return from vacations, (because they gave you something first)
Or for every birthdays, or expensive/personal gifts for Christmas  and so on."
I mean, it's a lovely thing if people wanna give me gifts, but it leaves me feeling bad if I can't return the favor :(

What do I do?

For this two weeks on vacation now I have been looking for a nice gift to give to my friends, but I have not found anything. Maybe I haven't tried hard enough? And it's hard,  since I hate shopping and try to avoid stores and shit.  I can live with a local market.

Am I a bad friend for not taking the time  to cross my 'allergy' to walk into shops to look for gifts? Am I doing something wrong?

I really struggle with this.  And I am not sure people really understand. I dont understand myself.

I want to give, but I dont want to stress with it.

"Give out of love, from your heart. Give because you want to, not because you need to."

I try to live by that, but it's hard.
I am a fan of giving of my -time- in stead of giving physical things. But I am not sure that is for everyone. People want nice things,  I get that, but . . .
For me, time, an un-expected surprice, experience, a dinner, a drink or somthing like that, in good company is a "perfect gift" for me. But would that be "good enough" for others,  or will they feel cheated, or think that I am cheap?

I am perhaps overthinking,  Im sorry. But I look in my calendar and I see that there is like 5-6 events coming up the next month (birthdays and such) and I want to be there on them all, give the perfect gift, be that friend and all that. . . Yet, then reality struck me - I need to be at home, alone, sitting with the computer with the floofs and a tea. . . Just allowing myself to think/beleive that they will still love me for being absent - again and again -
Not because you dont want to be there for them.  . . Because thats the only thing I want.
It's just - I dont know where i am heading with this, but I am scared of not being the one I want to be, and that one day my friends will get tired of my words.  Words are not worth much when you are hiding in your cave, trying to be good enough but at the same time not doing any effort.
By effort I mean gifts. People like gifts, it's human. I do to.

Why am I so bad at gifts?
Or is it just me who think that I am?
Though I am. . . Even writing a card and send it can be to much of an effort at times. . . 
I  get a bit sick of myself by writing this.  Write a card cost nothing, and gives so much!

Wtf.  Is wrong with me? I owe so many people so much, and I can't do the tinest thing to find something nice that they will appreciate.

Maybe I am greedy? Maybe I just dont want to spend money on things? Is that why, I dont know?
I dont feel like I am. But what do I know. I can't judge myself. I am not rich, but I try to help out when I can. Like small things here and there. Either by money, services, help, my time, an ear to listen and things like that.

Hmmm
Perhaps I should make a document and ask everyone to write what they like on it,  so I can carry it with me at all times, in case I accedently come over something on that list.

I like to give gifts when people don't expect it. I love that.
It might be small things like a drawing,(not small,takes time) a chocolate, a coke, a drink or something like that.

Bah. I am babbeling.
I guess Im just tired and overthinking. Travelling home tomorrow, so will be a long day and a long coming week with a lot of things to do and take care of.

But Italy was amazing! Will be good to come home again though.  To routines and floofs. GOD how I miss them.

Thanks, please let me know if you have any advice for me regarding my hopelessness when it comes to gifts.
And no... I can't really make anything homemade minus maybe a (digital) drawing.

- M out.

Anyways, this was just a random post about gifts.
I can only leave it with - I wish I were better at it. Please dont give me (expensive) gifts,  I am horrible for giving something suitable in return ( I try my best at Christmas though
:(

Battle Quest pictures

Some pictures from Battle Quest 2018.

I love them all! Great photographers :)
Here with my group ( clan oakenshield), brothers, friends, and enemies.

#Ifeelsocool

No more larps 2018, what about 2019?

Not 2 week have passed since Battle Quest ended and I am already missing it's people and athomsphere. Polish larps are just something special.

I have finally made up my mind on what I should do with my larps for next year.
I was in a long thinking box before BQ, on if I should attend another BQ or go for 2 witcher Schools in stead.

I can only afford to attend 2 events a year. So I have to choose.

It all depended on how BQ ended for my part. I had fun, yes. Had moments I would never been without, (It was amazing, a 'date' with the witch hunters )but it did not reach the expections for me to return. It was hard to be a non-polish attendant, even in an internationalfriendly group.

So. The choice I ended up with is
:  Obviously attend our last episode in season 1. Cant wait. It will be fantastic and terrible at the same time, I know it.

And I was told by a friend from Season 3, that I should aim for that one. So unless someone convince me otherwise, I agree with it. Leaves more episodes for me to attend, since I jump in in one already existing game.

I'll just have to keep myself updated for when new dates are to be announched, and be quick to book my vacations, days off and all that stuff.

So.
I just have to wait then.  This endless waiting again. We all know the horror, some more that others.
<-------

My Battle Quest team :) beautiful people.

Witcher school

Battle Quest - Larp - favourite moments

A few friends wanted me to write more about my experience with Battle Quest, so I thought I would give it a chance.

I can tell a bit about what my favourite experience was. Also known as the best moment.

It is definitley the 'Kidnap' scene.
I was not expecting it, but I was definitley hoping for it. So as one in 650, I won! Of all the people who lied 'wounded' on the ground,  I was the one who got a cold hand on my shoulder with a whisper : ' are you alive"?
I turn around and look at the stranger who was so kind to offer me a healing potion. I drank it. (Was some sort of strong alcohol, great for the effect of me almost choking on it.)
- Good, he said, before his follow companions forced handcuffs on me and bind a rope around my neck.
- You'll come with us, we can make good use of you. (And then they laughed) You will tell us what we want to know.
(Me as a player was all like: Yeeees, this is sooo good!!)
Me as a character refused to say anything, and started to fight back, but she had ofc. No chance against 3 or 4 imperial soldiers and one witch hunter - (that would be the boss) So she was punched in the face as a mild warning.

So there I was, dragged and pushed to the enemy camp, where they tied me to a tree. I tried to escape, but they caught me. Again tied to the tree for interrogation. Aka:Torture (with knives, forced drinks into me, shoot me in the knee) I gave them the Green card at once, which means that I enjoy the scene and want more of it.
What I did not know was that they actually killed me.
The moment they stabbed a knife in my heart and yelled to burn the witch's body, I knew I was. No going back.
They dragged me to the field, threw a smokebomb next to me and whisper : dead man walking. (That means I must walk back to my camp as a dead man. I Should hold my hands crossed over my chest)
The people who were responsible for my treatment waved me goodbye, smiled and thanked me for a good scene, and I thanked them back before I left their camp.

Back in my own camp I got resurrected,  (Even though my body was burned.)
but at the cost of praying to the Gods of Chaos (which is the worst God, that we all try to avoid)
So I was back, slightly confused at first, and played a lot on that. Was fun.
After that, the old Asta was back, but again. . . The God of Chaos is the only God!

That was my moment of Battlequest 2018.
The witchhunterguy did also have a camera on his hat, I wonder if there will be a video of that scene, or if I can see it :)
He was a fantastic actor. Very convincing in act and costume.

Battle Quest -Larp- How was it?

So. I went there.
The end

. . .

No really. There is a lot to say about this event , I dont know where to start.
With the beginning perhaps.
Lets skip the part with the flight delays and that stress, and lets jump to the part when the car stopped just outside what was suppose to be our camp for the weekend.
I was thrilled! The nature there looked absolutely stunning, big field with trees and bushes, pluss a forrest. And the forrest was our place.
-Clan Oakenshield-
The weather was sunny and warm. (Yay)
I instantly dragged my luggage over grass and roots until I found my group.

I was greeted with so much love. People knew I was late, because of my constantly whining on Facebook. But they hugged me with smiles and kind words.
'' You are finally here". I think it was around 18-19. We got a bit lost on the way.

Then I got a cake a friend had prepared for me. . . A whole cake, with a message - happy birthday, Merethe"
That was one epic cake - vegan and sooo tasty! I shared it with everyone who was around (after eating half of it alone first, of course)

And between all this I found my viking/medival ish- tent filled with hay. Love the concept.
Our camp looked amazing with it's own kitchen, and showers! Im not sure how many tentswe had in that piece of forrest, but maybe 10.
We had orks and goatpeople as our closest nabours, too. The orks and goatpeople were hillarious and fantastic in both costumes and acting.

So that was our camp. We even had our own photographer, from Witcher School with us, and I can't wait for the pictures to come!
- When we were done with setting up the tents, a little pre-party was happening in our camp.

But before that I eventually went to the 'Zwergburg' (Fort Nysa) to see if I could find some more familiar faces. Also to attend the workshops (which was only for poles the first day, they said)
But I found friendly faces, also exchanged zloty for in game coins, and picked up my sword I bought in advance.
The town they build also looked amazing and very medivalish with shops, blacksmith, hayballs everywhere for seats, and campfire in between. I spend a lot of time there during the game. Though it took 10 minutes to walk there, back and forth from our camp. It was NOT only because I wanted to use the one shower they had,  or the propper toilettes. . .  Ha ha.
But the first shower the second day before the game was the best ever, though it was kind of simple with bugs and spiders all over the place...brrr... not a place to be picky.

The next day more preparation for the game happend. More stuff to build in the camp, also  time to prepare the players with the 1-2 hour long workshop in both polish and English. I got some food there, wich was rather sad. (vegan options were basically soup. Or more like hot water with a handfull of beans, and not enough, though I asked for a big portion.)
But the food and chefs in our camp were AMAZEBALLS, it was plenty and it was sooo good. And they were always smiling when I came with my foodbawl.

The game did in fact not start before 21 in the evening I think. People like me were excited when we got into our costumes and was left to wait for further signals when the game would start.

The game :

-I won't tell what we did in details, in case of spoilers or something, but I can say it involved a looot of walking in the forrest and back and forth to Zwerburg.(up to you)
-It was a quest to find some minerals in the 'dwarf ruins', which was kind of cool, since we went into an actual (modern) ruin thing. It was dark and creepy, and we needed lamps to be able to see anything. And be aware of imperial soldiers who might do the same.
- There was a lot of guard the Bastion(flag) both during the day and the night. #lackofsleep
And we learned that waiting is a part of the war too. . . A lot of waiting.
- And there were fights against the empire serval times. Big and smaller fights.
- One could party, play games, sing songs, dance, buy stuff from the shops, in the town if you wanted that in the evenings. That was cool.
- If you were lucky you got kidnapped or taken in as a prisoner by the enemy (I was lucky and I loved every moment of it) My best moment from the game - Being tortured to death! Ha ha
- And the last day was all about the final big Battle. Which was rather a frighting experience for me. I got asthmaattack during the fight, since I could not move, and people where pushing you in every direction until you got stuck while imperial soldiers smashed their halberds over your head. . . I was not prepared for that, and I forgot to breathe, and that happend.
I was also a bit dissapointed, since I was hoping for a big linefight om the field . . . Instead we ended up in a crowded hallway in the old town.

All in all it was a great experience. I am glad I went, but to be honest, I dont think I will return next year.
Why:
-To much polish, even within our "international friendly" group. Some people did an amazing job to try speak English and not forget us who dont speak polish. But it was hard to be around Groups of people and not understanding what they talked about. You could not join the conversation unless you asked or started it first. Ofcourse I could play on being an outsider and just interupt every conversation to make them translate everything, but that would rather ruin the game for them.

- Cheating with the fightrules, people just did not take their hits.

- A lot of waiting, and lack of sleep during the night, made you sleep during the day in stead and then you missed out some important information about the battle or something else fun going on.

-BQ is a killer for your feets. Ha ha. I am still halting on one foot.  I dont know what it is, but it hurts a lot under the toes. Like really.
I had two pairs of shoes that I switched between, but . . . Forrest is brutal :p

- Probably my own fault.  But note to self -bring better sleeping blankets. Even if it is 30 grades during the day, it's shit cold at night.

- Also we got tons of rain when the sun was not cooking us. It was either this or that. Guardingthe flag in poor clothing was not directly fun, but I assume that is my own fault.

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But, I can't wait to see the pictures!!! That and meeting great people alone is worth everything.


And totally random. Airport in München is the worst. 34 min walk to my gate with one and a half foot.
And with a train :(

I hope this post dont sound too harsh on the game. It's just my opinion. And I spoke to other international players who enjoyed the game a lot,  and even more and more as the game went on.

My cake :)

Battle quest - larp - 2018 - Stuck in München-

So...
It had to happen at one point :
Flight problems.

My worst fear when I am going to places, especially when it's things like this, larp!
-  is just that, 'my flight get cancelled.'

55min. delay might not sound so dramatic to you, but you don't know me, or see how my brain reacts to 'plans got changed'- news.
I was totally heartbroken when it was announched on the airplane in Denmark. Computerproblems.
(They also spoke so low,  and I could barely hear what they said on the updates)

I don't  handle it well. My brain don't.
When I look forward to something,  I look forward with every inch of me. All in, 100%, held nothing back.
And imagine how everything collapses when something happens. Everything do just that, collapses, and take me with it.
My world collapses, and I can't focus. All I see is everything I loose/lost.
This time, it is precious time. Time I could spend with friends (whom I don't see to often) instead of slacking on an (fucking big) airport.

(I know I sound like a crybaby, perhaps I am.)

In this moment I am STILL in München airport. If things went to plan I would been eating cake in Wrocław right now.
NOP.
I have been fighting tears and frustration. I have survived turbulense on the flight ( I dont like flying in the first place) have walked for ages to get to my gate, only to walk back to stand in line for 30 minutes.  Needed to figure out og my luggage will be with me.
Then they gave me a 7 eur compensation-check . . . I got a juice.

Here- I had ten minutes to reach my connection.
We landed the same minute that plane departed. Oh the IRONY!

The juice was good though.

So Im sorry for Spamming Facebook with my misery, feel free to ignore.
But I am an emotional being. . .
Thanks to everyone trying to light up my world.

Slowly calming down now, because of you guys.

I mean. I have the most amazing people in my life.

1: I was instantly provided with a drive to the event after, but not before 8PM.
Meaning I would be at Nysa at 22PM. (Laaaate) but better late than never.

2: I was suppose to eat (late) birthday cake in town, as I mentioned above. . .
Suddenly news reach me that there is a 1kilo VEGAN cake waiting for me at Nysa (final destination) (!) What the fuck..I am speachless.

3: Then a witcher friend message me that she did a phone call and arranged to pick me up at the airport when I land, at 16:15 , so I wont be late in the end!!
What.are.the.odds. ?!

I was prepared to spend 4 hours alone In Wrocław, perhaps find a bar and drink for myself. . . .Then that happend.

I keep asking myself what I did to deserve these people in my life?

So here I sit with my juice, reflecting and trying to calm down. Also feel a bit ashamed over my emotional being, but it's how is, I am who I am. Just bear with me.

Now I am just superhappy I can attend the workshops,  and hook up with people earlier than feared.

Love you guys.

#nomoreplanetroubleplx

Battle Quest - Larp #4 - TOMORROW

It's happening. Tomorrow! 

I have spoken to so many people already today. (It's 10, in the morning) and EVERYONE is :  CHILL! 
*Sooorry* 
I don't feel like I am stressing the shit out of myself, and everyone else, but maybe I sound like I am. Ha ha. Well, I can blame it on the hype, or on myself for not being able to hype in a respectable way.
Really looking forward to this game now. And the sun. Yes. The sun. It's all raining and grey over here for the last week, so. Some more summer would be lovely. So gonna walk barefoot in the grass at one point. Love to feel the grass between my toes.

But first. Work.


Speaking of stress. 
This is how my day and tomorrow will look like: 

Today:
08-16:00 : Last workday before 3 weeks of vacation!
16:30: Buy some travel food and reads.
18:00 : Hairdresser 
19:00 : Color my hair
19:30 : Pack
20:30 : Pack some more
21:30 : What did I forget? 
22:00 : I should been in bed two hours ago.

Tomorrow: 
03:30 : Get up and take a shower.
04:00 : Get in the taxi to the airport
04:30: Check-In, and do airport-stuff.
05:30 : Boarding
Wrooom to Denmark and Munchen. And stress/wait there.
12:30 : Landing in Wroclaw
13:00 : Food and cake! (eat fast) 
14:00 : Wrom to Nysa, where everything will happen! 
16:00 -> Saturday 17:00 : Lost in time and space in another dimmention, having a shitloads of fun! 

And Sunday: Sometime in the morning, get back to town and Wroom back to Norway in the evening. And the very next day. Wroooom to Italy! 
Don't know how to get to the airport, though. Let's hope someone find space for me.

But, totally worth it! :D 
At lot of wrooms incoming, it seems.

Battle Quest - Larp #3

8 days left! 

I am for real starting to feel the H Y P E, and I embrace it. I truly do. I am so ready to try this new thing (for me) 
A battle LARP on a big field, with a castle, and tons of tents, if I got it correctly. 
And it will be 27+ nice weather on top of it. Yay. 

Things are getting more clearer. From me knowing next to nothing to actually understand the rules, the complicated stuff with different Gods, clans, family and friends and foe's relations.
My character got some relations and a family, and I can somewhat already feel the connection in a weird way. We are talking together over facebook, just to build a story. How long have we know each other, what did we do in our youth, what is your strenght and weaknesses, what is your favourite color and so on.
I got a strong Clan and family bonds, and powerful ancestors. 
I have a name, a past, morals and history. I even got a plot that was written to my character yesterday, and I don't know the details about it yet, but I know I will love it, and can't wait to see it in action.
I even got some requests that scares the shit out of me, but I decided it's time to step outside the comfort-zones, and just do it. How else can I improve and gain more trust in myself if I don't.
LARP community is a forgiving crowd in my experience, so if you F'ck up. They'll help you out, or act on it.

1: I might sing something around the campfire. Mostly norse viking/Medival inspired songs. . . because it's sort of suitable for the setting, and I am . . to my knowledge, the only Norwegian/scandinavian in our Clan. . .(?) Not that it matters that much. But I know a few songs, so why not try share them? 
The only problem I have (And ITS a big problem, like really. I have a terrible performance fright when it comes too singing alone in front of people) is that I am so very scared. I like to sing, but I am not a singer. I like to sing, but I am not a performer. I like to sing, but I am no solo singer.
But our 'boss' told me something that actually calmed me when I told him I can try, but I don't sing well. : ''Good, then it will be natural''
I like that sentence. 
So, at one point in the evenings, when all the battle-trainings are done, I might find a spot and just sing, for my self or something, worst case scenario. I don't have a powerful voice that will be heard all over the place. 
I know there is people there who can sing-sing. I am not one of those, so bear with me. (And please take over <3 ) 

2: I was asked if I would lead the morning warm-up for our Clan. If I am lucky there might be 40 people attending. But I am overall happy with just one. 

Stupid as I am, I said yes. . . without even knowing what I was suppose to do. Luckily, I got a lot of help from a friend, who help me put together a plan for some exercises that should not be to hard, but more fun and suitable for the Clan and the setting. 
It will be like 08:30 in the mornings, and last 15-20 minutes. So, though I am terrified as fuck - I just have to hope for many people helping me out here, and attend. Some of the games only work with enough people :p 

All in all, for both of these things I must do myself a favor and know that it IS a game. And if I fuck up, well, just play on it!
And when all this is done, and I have done these two things. I should clap myself on my shoulder and say : At least you tried. Well done. 


I have already started packing o.0 
Though this will not be the final costume, as I have ordered some stuff that I will receive there, and here. But it is a base at least.

Gaah, I have a tickeling nervous feeling in my stomach while writing this. I am SO Excited, and nervous at the same time, but most excited. I will be playing together with people I already know, and total strangers. I love it. 
Time to make new friends, hopefully :D 
 

Battle Quest - Larp #3

8 days left! 

I am for real starting to feel the H Y P E, and I embrace it. I truly do. I am so ready to try this new thing (for me) 
A battle LARP on a big field, with a castle, and tons of tents, if I got it correctly. 
And it will be 27+ nice weather on top of it. Yay. 

Things are getting more clearer. From me knowing next to nothing to actually understand the rules, the complicated stuff with different Gods, clans, family and friends and foe's relations.
My character got some relations and a family, and I can somewhat already feel the connection in a weird way. We are talking together over facebook, just to build a story. How long have we know each other, what did we do in our youth, what is your strenght and weaknesses, what is your favourite color and so on.
I got a strong Clan and family bonds, and powerful ancestors. 
I have a name, a past, morals and history. I even got a plot that was written to my character yesterday, and I don't know the details about it yet, but I know I will love it, and can't wait to see it in action.
I even got some requests that scares the shit out of me, but I decided it's time to step outside the comfort-zones, and just do it. How else can I improve and gain more trust in myself if I don't.
LARP community is a forgiving crowd in my experience, so if you F'ck up. They'll help you out, or act on it.

1: I might sing something around the campfire. Mostly norse viking/Medival inspired songs. . . because it's sort of suitable for the setting, and I am . . to my knowledge, the only Norwegian/scandinavian in our Clan. . .(?) Not that it matters that much. But I know a few songs, so why not try share them? 
The only problem I have (And ITS a big problem, like really. I have a terrible performance fright when it comes too singing alone in front of people) is that I am so very scared. I like to sing, but I am not a singer. I like to sing, but I am not a performer. I like to sing, but I am no solo singer.
But our 'boss' told me something that actually calmed me when I told him I can try, but I don't sing well. : ''Good, then it will be natural''
I like that sentence. 
So, at one point in the evenings, when all the battle-trainings are done, I might find a spot and just sing, for my self or something, worst case scenario. I don't have a powerful voice that will be heard all over the place. 
I know there is people there who can sing-sing. I am not one of those, so bear with me. (And please take over <3 ) 

2: I was asked if I would lead the morning warm-up for our Clan. If I am lucky there might be 40 people attending. But I am overall happy with just one. 

Stupid as I am, I said yes. . . without even knowing what I was suppose to do. Luckily, I got a lot of help from a friend, who help me put together a plan for some exercises that should not be to hard, but more fun and suitable for the Clan and the setting. 
It will be like 08:30 in the mornings, and last 15-20 minutes. So, though I am terrified as fuck - I just have to hope for many people helping me out here, and attend. Some of the games only work with enough people :p 

All in all, for both of these things I must do myself a favor and know that it IS a game. And if I fuck up, well, just play on it!
And when all this is done, and I have done these two things. I shoull clap myself on my shoulder and say : At least you tried. Well done. 


I have already started packing o.0 
Though this will not be the final costume, as I have ordered some stuff that I will receive there, and here. But it is a base at least.

Gaah, I have a tickeling nervous feeling in my stomach while writing this. I am SO Excited, and nervous at the same time, but most excited. I will be playing together with people I already know, and total strangers. I love it. 
Time to make new friends, hopefully :D 
 

Witcher school - Character development - LARP

One month and a week + has passed since I left Poland and Witcher School, but it feels way more.
The first round of pictures has come out! Whooho, and now I am totally back there again. Ha ha. As always.
I was lucky to make it in actually a lot of pictures this time :o 
(Yay me) 

As I am looking through these daily, I wanted to compare Bodils development in pictures. Just one from each episode since I first started this amazing journey in September 2016.
I have just missed one episode in this storyline, which is the first one, but I am really glad it is not more than just that. So I have basically almost the whole story in her character, which is great :D 


And here it is :) 

Season 1: 
1: Episode 2 - Bodil did not get any clear in-game pictures, (well, one, but I really don't like my face in that one, so I rather not.) 
But here she pose with Master Bastian and Claw-friend Vatkyr.
Gear: Simple. She is not poor, this Bodil. But, it was not like her foster-parents threw money after her while they send her away either.  Some simple, but comfortable linen shirt, a blue hod ( NO SHE IS NOT A STRIPE BECAUSE ITS BLUE...) Belts, because reasons, and comfortable pants for the road. There might be a lot of running, jumping and stretching. . .
Mind: In game: She is starting to learn what path that is waiting her. She found some great people and friends at this school, and also people and mentors that cares for her, and she for them. A witchers life seems dangerous, but, it's a life, and she don't really have a choice. 
Out of game: Merethe has fever while this picture was taken. It is 04 in the morning, and she is super happy, and exchausted at the same time. And not aware of the Port-larp-depression that would follow.

2: Episode 3: Bodil is back on the path after 6 months travelling - looking for a Whyvern, did not find it, came back to learn more. Found out her mentor is gone. Also grown a love for alcohol, and parties . . and elves stinks! 
Gear: After travelling a lot in the wild she learned that long hair is a pain in the ass, off with it!  She's been earning some few ores on small contracts, and ofc. she needs better gear. It is cold in the winter, so a woolen cape is gold, also scarfs and better gloves still keeping her blue hood, still no stripe. She is absolutely a proud Witcher adept. 
Mind:  She is definitely disappointed about some friends life choices, so she is angry. . . but no problems can be solved over some drinks. Other than that, the feeling of hate towards elves grows stronger and she don't really realize it. For her, it has always been there. Elves are shit. 
Out of game: Merethe is cold, but waiting for something, or someone, otherwise she would been inside with a drink or perhaps a cup of tea. It is still shit early in the morning.

3: Episode 4: Oh, things are getting dark and out of control. If she don't get help, and that quickly - she will be in deep shit problems, or dead by her own stupidity. 
Gear:  As portrayed, she has a very-extremely comfortable jacket for travelling. More belts and stuff attached to them, and her beloved sash from ep.3. So practical. She got her own sword - a Claymore. The bigger, the better after all :p A new shirt for every event too. Later on she gets her deeply loved Gambeson who does it's job by keeping her intact and whole from physical attacks. . . so far.  Also, warm.
Mind: Prft. As mentioned over. She now hates elves so badly she would kill them at sight, barehanded even. Just give them to her, right now. Those bastards shall pay!
Her mind is all over the place. She is confused and angry, but constantly looking for new ways to improve her skills. She figure out she want to be trained by the best, so she tries, and it worked. Little did she know what would happen next. 
Out-of game: Merethe is surprisingly warm though it's early March, and everyone was like : It will be COLD. This is after morning warmup, I think. And I think she is looking for that someone who could help her with her rage issues. Took her a day and a half to get it done. . . Some people are just TOO busy! (And it was my nr2 moment in the whole game. The elf scene was nr 1, which followed right after)

4: Episode 4: And here we are again. This time she is completely fucked. . . mentally. She is broken, depressed and so very-very lost. Constantly struggeling to keep her mind focused. At least she can control her anger and rage.
Gear: GAMBESON! I am, to be honest, very happy with the gear I (she) have collected over 2 years, now. I actually had way more with me than I was able to use over three days in game. I tried to switch now and then, but there was no time. Important to notice that she brought her cup with her everywhere! Must.drink.always. 
Mind: A drunk. She drinks to sleep, drinks to be awake, drink for drinking, and drink for eating. She drinks for reasons. Maybe she tell you why, but most likely not. One can ask her what really happened after she became an apprentice. 
She had a lot to think about this round, but. . . this way or the other. She will always find a solution. No matter how lost she feels, no matter how many people and families she lost - she know she has friends, and people she can trust. 
It don't matter in the end. In the end Witchers are, and work alone. Better get used to it now than later. Still. Not, yet. 
Out of game: I will never-ever play depressed in these matters again. . . I could not get out of character, mentally, and that completely ruined the after party (and the two next days in Wroclaw) for me. 
I tried, I learned - at least.  Don't do it again . . . especially since I already have depression on my head in real life, so . . I did not know it would effect me like this, but it did. I don't blame anyone, it was just a reaction I was not aware of. I still had a lot of fun, and I can look through the pictures now and feel like : Yes, there were many good moments for me and for Bodil, and I am superexcited for the next event in this season :) 
Thanks to everyone involved! You know who you are.


So important! (Ish)
Special thanks to the Claws.


Shoot arrows while standing on this log, but make sure you have the balance under control before you shoot. 
Was fun, and harder than it looks. He he. 
Also me as, Merethe, was SO tired here. This is from the last day. 

Photoes: Piotr Muller (So talentive!) 

Drawing - character design, cuddle-


Ley and Sylvana
Probably from 'Fanget i Fortiden '- book.

Drawing, Band of brothers fanart

Drawing, Band of brothers fanart.

Think before I speak?

I read an article : How to think before speaking.
Mostly, because this is my greatest flaw, and it would be nice to just avoid this at times. Though, most of the time I get away with laughing it away, because it happens when I caught myself saying something I should not said, or a word came out wrong. Then it is the times when you don't realize what you said before it's to late, or even days later. Those moments cause unease and stress, because what if I hurt them, or made a joke out of my self and now that is the only thing the remember me by. 

Back to the article.
They have some good points : Observe the conversation. Now that you know you?re in one of "those" situations, the goal is for you to process information. Often when we respond in a less than appropriate way, it?s because we didn?t fully comprehend what was being said. This is the time to sit back and listen to what?s going on around you. Don?t start focusing on what you?re going to say; just absorb. Your mind will process this information in the background.

Observing is something I should work on. Just listen, process, then talk if I have something to say. 
I guess there is this scary little voice in my head keep reminding me of childhood traumas like : ''If you are silent, and don't talk. You are shy. And shy people are boring. You are boring.'' 
Perhaps that's why I often just rush into conversations, just to be seen and heard, just to show that I am not shy? God knows.

Another point the article have is body language. I think I have this a lot when I speak. I kind of need it to avoid misunderstandings just because of the facts that I am not that good at expressing myself with words.

''Observe the people: Who is speaking and how do they communicate? Some people are very literal and some people use examples. Some people use a lot of facial expression and body language to augment their conversation, whereas others rely on complex verbiage. How people convey information is a very good indicator of how they best absorb information.''

This is also why I don't like discussing anything over social networks and such. I might sound angry and bitchy while I am the opposite. And this is also why I use way to many emojios when I write things in chats and on facebook walls. It probably annoys everyone as much as it annoys me. I don't really like my poor ways of expressing myself so ''childish''. I should learn to write properly. 

For some words comes easy. For me - no. I speak with the heart, on both good and bad sides. I am not always logic, but I am more emotional, I think. And that's probably where the weird words comes from. Suddenly out of nowhere, and it surprise people, because it is not expected, it's to direct or it don't fit in the conversation or setting. He he. My mind sometimes just shuts off, and suddenly I can burst out with something totally out of context. 
Example: - Interrupt a conversation to compliment someones clothing, hairstyle or just to tell them something I need them to know, do, answer a question or anything.  (Because I need to before I forget. I forget things easily)
                - Interrupt to tell about myself. . . this is SO wrong, I should stop doing this - who cares anyway? 
                - Interrupt in general. This is apparently a thing in my blood (citizens in my town are kind of known for talking loud and interrupt conversations. . .) 
                 

But I can also be very silent and don't say anything at all. It can be one of four reasons.
1: I am sick /depressed and full so of thoughts that I can't focus on anything else. 
2: I am just tired. Like, normal tried, lack of sleep-tired. 
3: I am hungry!! Feed the beast!
4: I don't really know you/unsure about you/ need to OBSERVE first. Hey, I can think - sometimes.

 

 

Sometimes I wonder why people are not tired of me, yet. Or maybe they are o.0 
And why am I starting to be paranoid. . ?

                  

Witcher school - I have a problem - LARP

Ay! 

Thinking might lead to confusion, and it did. 

My run on Witcher School is ''soon'' coming to an end. It's just one episode left (Panic!) It's both good and bad.
Good - because I want to know how it ends.
Bad - I don't want it to end.
Good - All stories need and ending.
Bad - Not this one. 

Well. And so on. But, this is not the problem. The issue is what should I do after, while waiting for a new-new event to start. I wanna join from the very beginning next time.

Here is the options I've been thinking about: 

1: Obvious, jump on the other international event that still is growing strong. Just until the new event starts. Then that will get my full priority. The only problem is that I don't know how far in the storyline they are, or if I ever have a chance to complete it, since I can't do 2 unique events pr year (4 episodes a year) 
But this choice means I can't do more BattleQuests.  o.0


It is final, just two events a year. Two weeks. BOOM. Cannot be changed.

2: Continue with one battlequest a year, until the new-new, event starts. But one event a year seems to little.
I could do one BQ and one WS, but that seems like a betrayal to Witcher School. Ha ha. Though it is the same people creating it. 

3: Do nothing, and wait for the new event to start. . . . . . No. . . just No. . .  not an option no matter the fuck what. . . What if there is no new event ?! :o 

I really hope the dates for the new-new event pops up in a decent time before it's happening, so I can plot an option to kill off my character in-game (If I started a new one) or something (That would be cool) since I can't continue on it.
But I don't know. We'll just have to wait and see. 
I can panic more later on ;) 

For now. I have a finger on #1 
Starting over new year. Jump on the first available event, and take it from there :) Then I'd be able to play with new people as well.
Gonna be cool! 


 

Witcher school - Flashback - LARP

It's not yet 09:00 in the morning, but my thoughts still brings me back. This time it's my very first event, almost 2 years ago now. 
Holy crap time pass by quickly these days. Not sure if I like it or not.

It's not a major thing, but it is a nice memory to me since it's one of the first, clear signs to me on what an amazing community this is. 

It was before the game started. And we were all waiting in the courtyard for the game to start. It was at Zamek Moszna, and it was September. 
It must have been sometimes in the later evening because it was getting dark. (Speaking of which, I missed the dark at this summer event of WS, June. It was like something was missing lining up - and there were no torches to light up, because it was already sun!) 
Anyways, it was dark, chill but not freezing. 
I have always been fascinated by the stars, and always feel so calm just looking at them. So I did. In the middle of the courtyard, alone, but still surrounded by strangers - I lay down. 

And here is the beautiful thing : I were alone for like 30 seconds before I hear a voice in the background. ''That does not look like a bad idea.'' And then the person just lay down too, right beside me. Another 10 seconds, two other people join in, and before I know it, we were like 5-6 people laying there on the cold stones, saying nothing and watched the stars. 
It was so beautiful. 
So never underestimate the beauty of watching the stars with some weirdos!
But eventually, your ass got cold -.- 

I have to say - That pre-game waiting day, that event was probably the best for me. Maaaaybe because I was new, and it was my first game, maybe not. I don't know. But I just wanted to say, it was right! :) 

For now, just for the update. I don't know when next event will be, but what I do know is that I will be there, AND I will jump on another event. Because I need two WS events pr. year.  

 

Battle Quest - Larp #2

So, its 36 days until I leave for Poland (again) 
I do other things also, I swear. 
It might seem a bit much now, since both Witcher School, and Battle Quest comes this close to each other.

I am trying a new concept, made by the same guys - Battle Quest, as mentioned before. I'm not completely new to the Warhammer concept, but I can't say I know the history of every clan, breed, race and so on. I just played the miniature game 15 years ago! 

I got into a group, I have made character with great help from a friend whom I will be playing with. So our group have strong roots in the viking world. So it's basically warhammer vikings. Ha ha. It is a bit cool, I must admit. 
I have started thinking costume, as now I know at least what colors they want me to wear. It's mainly brown. I have also bought another sword, and something to sleep on (as the ''borrowing'' option was already sold out.) So I hope I can get these things upon arrival, whenever that will be.
I keep my fingers crossed for as little confusion and ''omg I am so lost'' as possible when I get there. . . but I am aware that it might be total chaos, as it is a shit-big larp with so many people spread all over the field - I fairly think it's impossible to interact with half of the people there. 
There will be total Polish groups, and International groups playing together. I am very eager to see how this works out in practice. 
But most of all I am very hyped to see our own clan. I've noticed they work a lot on it, and show us hints and ideas now and then. It really helps on the hype.
They even have plans and designs for our own showers! (LUXURY)

Everyone is also talking about the deadly heat that is common for this game. Like 30+Degrees. 
Everyone is like : NOT THE HEAT
And I am over here being like : Summer - YAY! 

Never mind we are suppose to do battles and training and not only half-dying-of-heatstroke- in the camp.
Most important thing: Bring water - everywhere - always.
 Also. Emergency food. I am a food wreak. 


36 days will go so quickly. It's just a bit more than a month, but I start building up a hype. Especially since I got a kind of cool character, and have planned out a cool background story and relations. 
Her name will be Asta (Rhymes with Pasta), and she is (ofc) strong! And wont back out from a fight, or avoid one. Ha ha.

It's a sweet and nice thing with our group : Oakenshield clan.
We are extremely connected to family. Family is everything.
I like that beauty. No matter what, we will back each other up. ( think) It's like a movie I wanna watch.​ 

Ah. I am ready for battle. Looking so much forward to see everyone in costumes, change into another character and let them self loose into this crazy 'reality' of LARP. 

After this run, it won't be more far travelleling larps for this year. It's both good and bad.
Good: I don't have more vaction days. I don't have money for it.
Bad: I wan't more! I always want more. Unless BQ proves to be shit, witch I don't think will happen. I know the crew creating this, and they can't fail. Also know so many witchers attending, and they can't screw the game. So - It must be good.

And dear Lord: No panic attacks this time, please! I don't have time for it, and I don't wanna waste more precious time there by telling shit things to myself. 

But, yes!
I hope there will be at least one picture with me in it from the event! :'D 


 

Poems.

I just came over some poems I made some time ago, and I see a red thread. 
My 'best' one, are the one from my darkest days. Well, it's not grammatically correct, but for me it is. 
I have not really had a thing for poems until I just one day tried.
And to be honest, I have not written any new poems for a long time. I think the best poems are written for the heart anyways, when the emotions takes over and not the logic of our brain. The art of poetry is and should be written by emotions in my opinion. It wakes them up, give them life. Make the reader feel something.
I like poems like that. Poems with a deeper context than the words that are written. Poems with a whole book written between the lines.
THAT is a good poem! 

Hah. reminds me of school. We had hours of poem analysis. I hated it so badly back then. Now, today, 13 years later - I would like to learn more.

 

I found this poem I wrote last year, I think. July or August, maybe.

Carry on.


I look at the sky, it's mostly grey.
I put my hand on my chest - still - I'm not ok.
Time is past eleven,
I look up, but there is no heaven.

Clouds are crying, their tears are dripping
My body is shaking and my heart is ripping.
I'm trapped, locked to the wall.
Only a doctor can save me from this fall.

A battle, and I'm on the loosing side.
Flee or fight? I can't decide.
I used to be strong, but my energy is gone.
For now, I just have to find a way to carry on
.

----------------------------------------------------------------
At least two years ago, I still had long hair.

 

Outside, the weather is cold and grey.
The sun is gone, and I'd lost my way.

Darkness, the undefeated power of evil.
You can run and hide, but there is no retrieval.

Work, so many things you need to do.
You know, you know, their all counting on you.

A vacation, so needed, and so far away.
I close my eyes, I start to pray.

God, give me an answer, one or two.
Show me a path and guide me through.

In silence, I enjoy my cup of tea.
An everyday luxury for a simple employee. 
I kiss my cup and braid my hair.
A few more hours and I can leave this chair.

______________________________________

And something less depressing.

Without you, my life would have been incomplete.
You are sweet, and I enjoy you in my seat or on the street.

You are always warm, and you smell so nice.
I think you are a gift from the so-called paradise.

I taste you, I feel the heat,
on my feet, in a suite, under the sheet. . . repeat.

Satisfaction, who am I to disagree.
The beauty of reality  - is tea

______________________________________

:) 

I am writing again!

Ok, it took me some years, but I am writing again! 
Yay :)

I have completed: ''Fløytespilleren'', and sent it off to some publishers two days ago (fingers crossed, but no big expectations) 
This book is my 5th Fantasybook actually. So I believe I learned something about writing after 4 other books, and just one published (book nr 2, Klanen) 
I also have a 6th project started somewhere, but I'm stuck with it - I just wrote the beginning, and now I need a plot! Ha ha.

I am also writing for full speed on the rather brutal and serious book project about being childless. And it's going well, I think. Words comes easy, and I feel both motivated and inspired to continue. Last time I had to put it on ice because I just couldn't, or was not ready for it, yet. 
I got some positive responding from people who wanted to share their story in the book, and I am waiting for their replay, and already got one.
(If you have a story to share about being childless, not by choice, please feel free to drop me an PM)
I really want to write this book. So, let's hope the inspiration is with me a little bit more, at least to finish my part of the story.

Also, anniversary: I started writing my first book - today, 6 years ago. It's not published, and not very well written, but I am still proud of it :)
Such a jump from fantasy to a book about infertility. 

Well, let the words come. Sooner or later it will be harder, so, enjoy the moment while it's here.

 

 

Drawing- character design

6 years aniversity of my first fantasyuniverse, from "Den forviste alveprinsen"

Witcher School - post larp depression - #10

Ok.
This will take time, and it might be a bit darker than you are used to see here.
Yes, it surpised me too.
Also why I took me so long to update anything on this event.

1. First thing first.
The game was always as fun as ever. A lot of amazing new players, and New Claws. So good to see old players again, friends!

But, I will be honest: It was not my best game, but it was fun.
I think I had to high excpectations, and it simply did not reach them. Fair thing.
But- It was far from a bad a game, I had many good, funny, confusing,thoughful and good learning moments though the game, and my character are still growing and envolving.
The weather was good, the castle and it's surroundings were amazing, so many stairs! Very witchery.
So all in all - Yes, it was fun, yes I look forward to the next Event :)

2: post larp depression attacked me harder and more unexpected than ever. It started with a severe panicattack minutes after the game ended, witch lead me to miss the after party (I watched it from the window from my room.) I missed the photobooth I was looking so much forward too.
But I just could not talk/see to people. Though that was the only thing I wanted. Sucks.

3: then I had 3 more days in town to catch up. And there were good days with a lot of pizza, ice cream, magic the gathering,  games, coke and calm talks in the park, sightseeing, drinks. . . Such a nice time. Thanks to everyone involved.

4: Yesterday, day before leaving I got a serious depression attack, (not just a post larp depression attack. Well that too, at the top of it )and it kept my fun to a limit for the rest of the day.
It was very painful, and I cried a lot, felt bad becuse I wasted away my last day with my friends whom I wont see for a very long time.
Around 23:30 the last goodbyes happend, and each one were as painful as the other. . . Suddenly I stood there, alone and bearfooted (my feet hurted because of bad shoes) in the middle of the City.
I Dont know what I was thinking at that time, sitting on a loney bench before I eventually took the 30min walk back to the hotel.
But there were a lot of thoughts,  good ones trying to force over the bad ones.
I got back. Straight to the shower,  sat there for some minutes, crying.. music playing in the background.
Felt so alone.

Is it not weird?
Those attacks happens when you just dont want it too. Why could it not wait until I was home or something. Why did it happen when I am here, surrounded by people I love?
Good job me.

Time is 10:00 , Im leaving in 1hr. And 15 min
I Woke up 4 times this night, for no reason. I Feel totally exchausted, empty and sad. Im not ready to leave. I dont think it would been any easier if I got a few days more here, but still.

All in all. Despite these attacks, and how painful they are, I would totally go though them all again if a witcher School is involved.
Yes. It was worth all the waiting. Yes. It was fun. Yes. I had fun. Yes. Good experiences are what I will remember. Yes. I am fine. I'll be fine.
It will be good to come home too.

Thanks to all involved. You are the best.
Special thanks to those who took the time to handle my shit. You know who you are. I dont know what I would done without you there and then.
Angles.

So. This is the mandatory (brutally honest) "post-larp-depression" post of mine. Written on the phone, still in bed listening to Wardruna.

Thanks for now, and I'll see some of you again at BQ in two months. That will be nice. Not looking forward to the goodbyes again.

Well. Time to pack my bags.
Save travels my friends. Until next time.

Looking through the pictures made me smile a bit, actually. Every one of them has a story to it. Especially the doll serie there. (Yes, she got stabbed by that guy, and got cared for by that lady)
I will never delete these pictures.
I can't.

Witcher School-travel update 1 - #9

GOOOOOOOD MOOORNING!!!

I have slept 3 hours. It was SO hard to fall asleep, I tell you!
But. . . I did not miss my ridicoulusly expensive taxiride , and I have checked in, all good, and are waiting for my first destination - Copenhagen.

I wonder if there are other witchers by air who will be in DK at the same time(same flight to Wrocław)? Would been awesome. Last year, and the year before I found the same guy in DK and Amsterdam.  Haha. So funny.

Anyways
Time is: 04:58, and I've been up for an hour already.

So ready baby!!!

Ny face is just what it is  #tired,  but that wont stop me!

Soon Poland! Soon, and sorry not sorry for bothering you with my presens!

Witcher school - 1 DAY LEFT - LARP - 2018 - #8

Oh.My.God! 

Hold my hat - I am going to Poland tomorrow. TOMORROW! 
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK! 

It's happening. It's happening again! 

Early- EARLY morning, around 04:00, I will get up from bed ( If I got any sleep at all), take taxi at 04:30, be at the airport from 04:45, take my plane to Copenhagen at 06:00, then next to Wroclaw at 11:25. 
Swoooosh, landing at 12:35, as always. <3 

Long day. but SO worth it. I am shaking when writing this, ha ha. 

So. Now what. I am almost done packing. (3 days ago) Just need to add some details, like toothbrush and shampoo and such. 

Still trying to figure out what I forgot. 

Larp book, full of songs, poems, jokes, random larp stuff, character sheets and more. 
 
The last few days I've been trying to figure out how to make the days pass faster. . . Always end up with the obvious choice - World of warcraft!


Is it working? 
No, not really, no. 

I see people have landed in Poland already and meeting awesome people. . . And I'm like over here and : But. . . what about me? 
Hnnngh. 
Well, I should go ahead and pre-book my taxi before I forget.
And if anyone have a brilliant idea on how I can sleep ''early'' today - come with them. Things like get drunk, take pills or somerthing is no-go. . . 
I'll try reading a book again. English Steven King is pretty heavy for me in the first place, so. . . should be good enough.

Anyways! ''Travel blog date', as mandotary, will most likely come tomorrow morning as well. So, sorry for bothering you with my excitement. I am a lost case, I know.
Ha ha! 

But, eeep! I will be Bodil again in TWO DAYS! 

Witcher school - CHARACTER SHEET HYPE - LARP - 2018 - #7

I can scream. I should. I want! 

It's announced that the sheets are on it's way! Character sheets!
The next biggest hype ever existing in this world. Ha ha. 

I am all like, totally refreshing e-mail Stopped working, and can't really think of anything else now. 
EEEEP.

Just to explain with pictures : 

Open Email, start refresh. 

Heart stops a bit when I see a new income just after pressing... Then I cried a bit when I saw when it was from. Ha ha. This is my life now. 
Hmmmrgh.
I hope I get it so, so so soon.  I have an hour after work where I can chill in the park. Ask me twice if I am gonna use it for anything else than eating cookies and read about my next adventure?! 

*Refresh* 
Nothing.

Holy Lord, how come this hype being so crazy. My pulse is literally all over the place! 
Aaaah, I am so happy! 

*Refresh* 
Nothing. 

This button don't work. 

*Refreeeesh! It helps pressing the button harder, no?* 

UPDATE. 
People are getting them now, people who are not me, but are my friends. They are reading them right now! I can't handle this.
Where is mine, I need it - NOW! 
*Refresh* 
NOTHING! 
Another friend got his. . . This is killing me, I should leave the internet for a longer life. . .

Refresh* 
OH MY HOLY LORD AND BEOYND! I HAZ IT!!


Bye reality... I leave you with this face :D :D :D : 

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Lithanna

Lithanna

32, Bergen

En tegne/trene og skriveblogg. Jeg kommenterer ikke på andre blogger. Interesser: Tegning, skriving, dyrevelferd, hund, trening, reanactment, laiv, spill, sang og kor. I Juli 2015 fikk jeg min første fantasybok publisert. ''Klanen''

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